she will not see me weak I cant let her

I SEE THIS LIFE IS GONNA BE A FIGHT IF I WANNA KEEP IT! I KNOW PAIN IS A GAME WE ALL GOT TO PLAY! BUT I STILL DONT KNOW HOW IT IS TO HAV A GOOD DAY! YEH I LAUGH N SMILE ALL THE TIME BUT THAT DONT CHANGE NOTHING BAD IM FEELIN INSIDE! I THINK I NEED U 2 WORRY BUT U N LET ME WORRY BOUT ME! LIFE IS A ASS HOLE BY IT SELF SO Y U GOT TO BE THE PAIN THAT MAKES IT WORST? DO U EVEN CARE THAT I CRY IN MY CLOSET? DO U EVEN CARE THAT IM ALIVE ARE U EVEN HUMAN? HA, I GUESS NOT CUS U TREAT ME SO BAD! U SAY U LOVE ME N ITS ALL OUT OF LOVE BUT LOVE AINT SUPPOSE TOO HURT LOVE AINT SUPPOSE TO HAVE ATTACHMENTS! Im tired AND MY LIFE IS JUS STARTING! I NEVER KNEW A 13 YEAR OLD KID COULD YARN SO DAMN MUCH! I TIRED N JUS WANNA QUIT! BUT I CANT I REFUSE TO LET HER SEE ME WEAK! SHE WILL NOT WIN VICTORY OVER ME! I REFUSE TOO LET THAT HAPPEN!U LIK A SNEEZ THAT JUS WONT CUM OUT, UR IRRATATING AND MAKE ME CRY!