HOE

You're upset because your girlfriends a hoe.!
Well, don't that sound familiar.
I had a hoe Girlfriend before too.
Yeah, she's YOU.
Don't you remember?
The FootBall team? The tall light skinned dude? Or what about the dread head with the outstanding chest?
You were a hoe.
And you act like you didn't care that it hurt me.
Remember you get what you give so baby, you shouldn't have been a hoe.
You sit at the lunch table crying about how she/he did you bad. But don't you remember I use to be your punching bag?
Taking all the shit from you, then wiping all your tears away. Girl please.
Now your girlfriend is a hoe you want to cry.
Don't you realize I cried those same tears when I loved yo' Hoe Ass?

My Pen

Pen, I have a pen. I have a pen that speaks about everything.
My pen has a big mouth. My pen couldn't hold a secret if I paid it too.
My pen cries ink & writes truth. My pen cries as if its in front of God himself. My pen has more of a life than I've had in the last 4years.
My pen writes on my papers lines discovering its weaknesses & making its edges fold.
My pen is a freak. It writes my wildest fantasies making my girlfriends mind go to work. My pen writes to the God's.
Writing my insecurities, and making my dreams come to past. My pen is my best friend.
My anger oozes from the ball rolling across the Wexford Sheets.
I am my pens keeper. Keeping it safe, tucked away in my pocket being sure the bullies don't see it. My pen is my safety net.
I can depend on it to catch me if I fall in love a little too hard.
My pen is my best friend.
Pen, I have a pen in my pocket. I call it my Best friend.

Question my Faith in us.

I don't want to mess up your good day. But I'm starting to question my faith In us.
I don't know if you love me just yet, so I think I'd like to take it slow for now.
I'm not here to rain on your good day. I just wanted to tell you that I love you but its hurts. Yeah.
And I don't want to love you if it means I'll loose myself & my life, ooh noo.!
I'd rather stay single then to deal with you, your hurt & pain. You may not understand but you must know Its a girl thang.
Yeah, its a girl thang. I would expect you to not understand because your not made of sugar & spice & everything nice.
But heres the thing. Neither am I. I'm more like old spice slapped onto my daddy wrist. The night he went to visit my momma the night I was conceived.
I'm like failed Birth control pills & $200 for an abortion that my momma didn't get because my big brother needed some new kicks.
I'm like shots of wisky on my daddy's breath the night he left me & my momma on my granny's steps.
I'm like beaten & abducted women. So its easy for me to love you because my daddy never loved me. So i guess I'm just easy.
Easy not to fall in love with.
I didn't come to rain on your good day but I'm starting to question my faith in us.

ForEver & 7Days

This girl sends Shivers up my body. Causing my knees to be weak from the trust we've built. This girls the bomb. Shes the face I kiss good night every night in my dreams. She's spiritually mines for eternity. Nobody else is like her.
Before i met her I never knew someone could mentally send messages to my brain that made my heart smile.
I never knew holding onto someones chest could calm your heart beat but make mines speed, I never knew that Love was such a thing.
I didn't know that A kiss could cause a heart to explode into a million little "I'm sorry's" and Ten million "I never meant to do you wrong's."
And no one ever told me that your kisses hid a lie that your lips Wouldn't dare speak of. I didn't know you were capable of making me weak.
Hug me for 10seconds & I'll stay wrapped in you for hours, making you my safety vest protecting our hearts from fight over the one who'll end up with the broken heart.
I'll love you forever & 7days.

If Time Turned back.

I want times to go back how they were when I was like 5-6 Years old. People wore over all's & busted kicks. & every one came to Granny's house for an important event.
I want times to go back where all the women worked spiked hair like fantasia & all the kids on the block played "Dirty Face Monster."
When us kids ran from the porch to the green light Pole being sure to not pass from in front of the house, around the light pole & back to the porch. All in the name of trying to not get tagged in a game of IT.
I wish time would go back to when I couldn't go to the corner store without my big cousin being with me. Those times let me know people actually cared about me even if it may have seemed like then they were being mean.
If time just turned back far enough to let the Ice Cream truck roll on the block one last time, I'd stand in the kitchen at 14 years old jumping up & down begging momma to go give me a dollar so i could get a vanilla cone with extra sprinkles even thought she's in the middle of cooking dinner.
If time passed back, I'd have another day of being God's BestFriend like I was when I was 7. Up on time every sunday morning, Dressed, sitting on the couch & holding my grandmothers bible in my lap as she walked into the living room asking "Brown, which earrings should I wear? The gold hoops if the silver ones?"
Me pointing up at the silver ones but her putting on the gold instead. I wish times were much simpler,
Like Where I didn't care if I had on jogging pants & a kool aid stain on my T-Shirt. I just wanted to go outside & play. Where Barney made me happy. And when my heart didn't get involved with a relationship.
And i wish I could still take a nap in the same bed with my male BestFriend without people thinking sex was involved.
I wish I was a little kid again. Maybe I'd be much happier.

Love in my Wind Pipe

Do u know how it feels to have love in your wind pipe? I swore Not to exhale it but at the rate its coming I cant do nothing but escape it!
If love was suppose to suffocate you its doing its job with me. Its killing me.
I guess this is what happens when I speak with sincerity & Love without insecurities.
Back up I got this. I'll fight this flu myself.
I ain't even gon lie I miss u. But u disced me & I wont chase u, True.!
I'd rather hold you, when its cold. But instead I watched you leave in the cold that night.
You said we could just be friends but where was the friendship when I was with u. I missed u when I was with you cause I always felt you were never their. I love you.
Do you know how It feels to have love in your wind pipes? I guess not, It didn't suffocate you.

Want you as mine.

Sometimes I want to kiss your nose & tell you i love you more than any moon that can ever be full.
Sometimes I can't imagine myself ever breathing again without you being their.
AND
Sometimes, I want you to know I never stopped caring about you even if you think I have.
AND
Sometimes I just want you to hold me.
You don't have to hold me like you love me, just hold me like your my friend.
Hold me as if my body's the road map to heaven.
And kiss me like my saliva gives you life.
I WANT YOU AS MINES.
I know I had the chance.
And we both messed up, but because God believe's in 2nd chances shouldn't we all?
I know when ever you think of the date 10.18.11, the numbers fall into the cracks of your smile,
Almost falling out of your mouth at the seams of your teeth.
I know you wish to speak of me but your afraid she will hear you.
BUT,
Don't be afraid, yell it out loud. Say my name. Tell the world that I'm your 10.18.11 and you LOVE ME.!
Because everyday i wake up & yell, I LOVE YOU.